[He knew this. He knew that Lio saw it, was there through it all. But it's a painful fact to be reminded of.]

I know...I can still remember it, even--[Even though it hadn't really been him, it also had been in some way. He wouldn't remember it otherwise.]

I can't keep you from holding it against yourself but I don't want you to either...

[And he has to hesitate to say the next part because he doesn't know how Lio will take it. But to move past this, it's better to put everything out there.] For that whole Nobody thing to end, it had to happen. If I had been aware I probably would have...asked you to do it. Wouldn't have trusted anybody else, and I doubt I would have been able to take myself out. Shitty thing to admit to...